If I could have any gift in the world....

I have been doing some serious thinking this week. And I WILL BE heading back to the gym. But not until after Wednesday. Heading to the doctor first just to make sure that I can head back to the gym.

But, I sit at home and watch The Biggest Looser all the time. I find inspiration in the journey's these people take. And want to know sometimes why I cannot do this. If you ask my family I can be as stubborn as they come when I set my mind to something. And some have even encouraged me to apply for the show. But, yeah, I have way to much stuff that I have no desire to share with a national audience.

I used to get so pissed when "life" came between me and my gym time. Somewhere I just gave up and it pisses me off. Hell there is an athlete trapped in the body I have now and I am constantly just looking at myself and saying "Jesus Christ what happened". But I need to find a new mantra one that inspires me. 

I need the anger that came when "life" interrupted my work out schedules back!!!

Today I am starting on Bob Harpers book. If you watch TBL you know who I am talking about. 

So right now my gift to myself would be courage.

The gift I would love if I could have it would be Bob Harper as my trainer. Even for just a week.