Addiction why can it not be fun?

I realized that I have abandoned this journal.

Time to fix this.

I sit here and I am pondering Addiction and the power of it. 

I will admit that I have a severe food addiction. There is no denying it. After I go grocery shopping I sit at home and think about all the food that I have in the house. And it comes with great strain that I do not sit in front of my refrigerator and just eat the lot of it. It is sad but sometimes the food that I find the most satisfying lasts the least in this house.

Since my last post my eating habits have changed drasticly.

I no longer eat any form of fast food. It has been at least a month since all fast food was eatten except one time when my body was trying to tell me it was craving a hamburger. It was very wrong by the way. It was the most disgusting thing that I have eaten in a long long time. 

I do not think I have eaten Mc Donald's since before Thanksgiving.

My morning breakfast consists of a yogurt, 7 ounces of turkey meat and my vitamins for the day. I find that eating a breakfast high in protein last a lot longer than one full of crap. 


I have not eaten regular bread since New Years except for a sandwich or two. It is just not something that I am craving. Do not get me wrong I love bread and when I want it I do eat it. But I make it quality bread that is good for me as well.


A gym membership and numerous friends that belong to said gym has been acquired. I am now not without a work out partner when needed. Getting back into the swing of things will be hard. It is hard to look at myself now and remember that I used to be a competitive swimmer. I need to get back there I love just being in water.