Sobriety..

I have a lot of time to think while I am at work. I work the night shift and sometimes it is very slow.

I was thinking last night that in a sense I took my first step towards Sobriety. I admitted that I have a problem, that I need to fix it, that I cannot do it on my own, and yes I need help.

I am now working towards Sobriety (which is what I am choosing to call my journey at this point) one itsy bitsy step at a time.

Will it be hard, hell yes.

Will I mess up, most likely.

Will I get back on the right path again, most definitely.

I am not expecting anything to happen over night. There might not be any drastic changes that people will be able to see right away. But I am working on it.

I have family members that fight addiction all the time. Whether it be alcohol or cigarettes. I think I am pretty much the first, admitted, member of my family to have a food addiction. Which is a hard addiction to have. I do not have to smoke, do drugs, or drink to survive. I do have to eat. How do you deal with an addiction when you have to belly up to the bar everyday and take that which you are addicted to so you survive? That which is slowly killing you? This I do not have the answer to. But I am working on it.

I know I do not need people asking me - So how is your weight loss going? So are you hitting the gym regularly? You know we really love you but we would love for you to loose weight. All of these statements can be potentially damaging to someone trying to beat an addiction.

If you would like to ask me how I am doing please just ask how is your sobriety going. Most likely you will get a response that either says it is going slowly but it is going, or one step at a time.